eventually evolution.

theres been a lack of updates because i was in final exams and projects were due and they just took up a lot of my time....

anyway
mama, im coming home. it may be a black sabbath (or is it an ozzy solo credit that i should use here) song, and i am using it in the same way ozzy did back when he was still semi coherent. which is to say, at the end of his tours (in my case semester, because i cant put on a tour filled with 2 hours of nothing) he would call home and sing the song to his mum. so it takes away from any originality i may have claimed to have had. pulling an all nighter gives you a nice high, you ever notice? its a natural high, so it doesnt involve the kind of controlled substances (odd when you consider that having something controlled means you limit its output and consumption by anyone else yet junkies and burnouts abound everywhere in the us) that people like ozzy and that whole slew of metal hair bands may have possessed and consumed (aerosmith tyler and his guitarist were known as the toxic twins for a reason) long ago. you go through the stage where you feel really drowsy, then you loose the ability to speak properly and sound a lot like ozzy nowadays, and then you get that rush of blood to the head and adrenaline kicks in in its own beautiful way and suddenly you can do anything. granted not for very long, 15 minute bursts of activity seem to be the norm here. least thats how it happens to me... however even if people claim that more is better, not here. pulling too many all nighters in a row will destroy your ability to do anything intelligent. you just become this wandering slob. and while on the matter of sleeping. why is it necessary?
i know that lack of sleep will drive people insane and cause your body to undergo a massive breakdown resulting in your untimely (according to religion i suppose this word is unnecessary because everything was timed to occur exactly as it does... hmmm.. then again, if every person has free will, then even those testing you are undergoing a test of their own, where they had the choice of tempting you or not, and temptation seems to be a matter of situation more than anything. i guess we should all sit outside and occassionally hunt down a bunny or squirrel so we can eat, and never interact because that leads to temptation, kind of like those monks that never speak and live atop mountains, because thats what they do.) now where was i before that? oh right sleep. you would think that in evolutionary-darwin-survival-of-the-fittest type of development the last thing you would want is a gene that causes you to go unconscious every night for a couple of hours because you cant see the sun. and i think that night vision is something we would have developed as we eluded being eaten by things with big teeth and claws that go scratch scratch. because when we developed i think lions, jaguars and cougars and even the bear are far more equipped to survive against an ape... not that i would know, never have i tried to hurl my feces at a bobcat that was intent on eating my left leg, but im pretty sure it wouldnt mind nearly half as much as id mind not having a left leg. so yea, in darwin sense i should not have to sleep, and i should be able to see in the dark. because if i didnt have to sleep, then i could keep watch over my personal well being and that of my little primate offspring during the night when other things are around trying to eat me. and itss not like every animal goes on the same zircadian rhythm, the king of the jungle did not dictate that all animals would have to be in bed by 8 every night (the king of the jungle actually lives in the savannah so thats a bit misleading dont ya think?) and since im awake all night, i should be able to see in the dark, cause otherwise id be swatting at bushes and random twigs with my ferocious "club of beating" all through the night.and the platypus makes no sense, nor does most of australia for that matter. its like the test version of all the other animals. you have things that hop, slither, swim, run, fly or any combination of the above, and i think that weird running lizard comes from there as well. explain the platypus! its like a beaver and a duck got very very confused one dark night (because they cant see in the dark either) and somehow mated, probably some bad berries from that afternoon. and if we are designated lords over animals and they have to serve us.... what possible use do i get from a 3 toed sloth? or a jaguar? or a boa constrictor?? or the blastded annoyance that is the mosquito? with its little buzz buzz all damn night trying to take a little souveneir out of my vein (i need that dammit). and fleas? what about crabs (not the ocean based ones), ticks and lice??
wet=nt to see xmen2 tonight... i love the first five minutes for being simply cool to watch, i dont care if the matrix has revolutionary visuals (i still hate watching keanu fly past pictoresque panoramas just because he can) i like the teleportation thing alam cummings (make up your own joke) did as nightcrawler. it was coo' and anyone who says otherwise is just being plain difficult and thats no good. and being a right bastard is a good thing, but just being a bastard isnt. same thing with being plain difficult. being devil's advocate is good. difficult isnt. difficult is to close to being bitchy. and nobody likes bitchy. bitchy ick. so stop complaining, just realize that if the caveman with nightvision standing to the left of the other caveman hadnt been crushed under that boulder (nobody said nightvision came after intelligence and common sense) we would all be able to see in the dark now. and darwinism is failing nowadays, stupid genes are beeing allowed to prosper and fugly genes are spreading haphazardly throughout our gene pool. its like the filter broke down and we decided that our gene pool looks kind of nice with a greenish tint so we dont call the repair man/woman (political correctness at work... technically person so as to not leave out transvestites, hermaphrodites and the sexually ambiguous) we have to many ways of preventing a stupid (mentally challenged he is not... i mean common-sense-impaired) person from fulfilling his role in society (to die in a very stupid way, so that we who survive realize how much better we are than the now deceased individual). dont help them, their defective. let them go according to survival of the fittest. because i dont see how not knowing not to check a gas tank with a match is a positive thing to pass on to future generations. i swear to god or whatever deity resides up above (or maybe its really just a little to the left of where we think it is) that someday that stupid gene is going to shoot/maim/kill/dominate the common sense gene everywhere. and can you imagine if we ever get to dominate the genes well enough that you order your baby through e-bay by clicking on little check boxes (height = small, medium, large... hair color = black, blonde (specify shade, barbie or dirty) brunette, redhead... ethnicity = american, other, random etc etc) and your baby formula (just add filtered vitamin water and bake for 30 minutes) arrives in your mail tube the next hour. at that point what happens? we all become equal all of a sudden? we all have iq numbers astronomically high and we all look exactly alike and wander our lives with little to distinguish ourselves from everyone else. it will be like the idealized america from the 40's. i think im done for tonight.
maybe in a week ill do this again.
stream of consciousness is fun.