oversentimental bastards.

so im going through some people blogs and i realize something. it seems that a persons blog is invariably linked to other blogs that are written similar, or sound similar... so much so that i just went through one person bloglist and all five of his links (yes the bastard is male and not female, so relax dear) where very similar to his. some sentimental long winded over analyzed over fantasized incredibly sappy/corny ode to a girl from yesteryears written in a fabulous eulogy style (in past tense, and the ever popular "we split up, but i think it was for the best") followed eventually by some ramblings in the best faux poetic style they can muster regarding a new person (the variable here is that sometimes they know them other times its that person at the coffeeshop/class/apt/etc). and then some pointless issues about their day... why do so many blogs read like 15yr old musings written in crayon in some cheap cheesy diary with that stupid little useless key/lock thing? i suppose this isnt the place to search for brilliant literary works or meaningful discussion... perhaps in an ideal world.
you know what... this is an ideal world. stop the bitching about someday it will be better, or back in the good ol days (like when? when was it ever better than it is now? 60yrs ago i'd be going to europe... to get shot at. 30yrs ago? no computer, internet, tv, college was something other people did, lots of drugs though so id be a junkie without a job. 20yrs ago? it was the 80's so fuck that with the reaganomics and all that shit. and that brings us up to now... the further back you go the more you have to surrender from your current life and the uncomfortable things get... more work less pay less options more hazard and eventually we make it to the plague. so no, there never was a good old day, just a romanticized memory from your childhood. actually that is everyones good old day, childhood cause we didnt know any better.)... the point was that this is as ideal as your going to get. every day is ideal. we get alittle more, improve just a wee bit (maybe not personally but in a larger global way) and sure there is pain and suffering, but theres always been pain and suffering, and there always will be, then now and after. itll always be there (consider the afterlife, burn in hell, live in heaven, someone is always suffering) and lets not blame this on humans, saying that humans are evil. it might seem evil but everyone has some little shiny parts. pol pot might be a manslaying (and woman and child and uncle and cousin) bastard... but maybe he gave his dogs some extra food and let them sleep inside, or maybe he had a soft spot for romance novels (? you never know, but reading romance novels isnt what i would call "good" but girls do it, actually housewives do it... so that doesnt mean anything at all). you know. its a matter of context, cause to be permanently evil would mean that you wouldnt really get to far (seeing how youd be killing maiming and generally causing pain and misery everywhere you set foot, which means they catch you and watch you through a little window for the rest of your life... on the other hand... free drugs! and electroshock maybe a fashionable lobotomy even.)
thing is stop thinking oh it will be better... cause sure it might, but its a random occurance if you benefit (cause nobody thinks of making it better for you, just getting the money out of your pocket so you think you are better,... its all marketing.). so it mostly comes down to you improving what you feel needs improvement... otherwise your just a bystander waiting for something to happen which may or may not happen and your probably not even sure what that something is but your sure youll recognize it when it happens. sure you will. and i will take over ghana and proceed to sell it to the french for 15 million hard boiled emu eggs. equally likely. cause the world will be ideal, when? when we all hold hands and sing in glorious elation about how its so nice and peaceful now that muslims, jews, communists, democracies, iraq, iran, syria, usa, all of russia, kkk, black panthers, glad, catholics, pope, antoine lavey, hicks, cityboys, rednecks, hispanics, ireland, britain,bloods, crips, democrats, republicans, spain, catalans, world vs world all got together and said "my bad. i thought you said sheepskin." fuck me in the ass if that ever happens. so stop hoping for better (cause entropy sets in eventually and its something of a bitch to stop isnt it.) and just cope with what you have and admit that its pretty good, if not probably more than you deserve (but im not here to judge what you deserve, if it were up to me wed go back to feudalism and id be king... cause its sweet to be the king, without the whole inbreeding thing though, more of a harem type king.)
whatever. im pretty content with how things are going (lets remember that im a cynical bastard who doesnt believe that 1 person makes a huge difference unless hes/shes being watched and backed by a couple of million, and it only takes one idiot to tarnish the whole thing, so watch your mouth).
i wonder if this makes any sense in hindsight... finals week makes my brain feel fuzzy.