so in thinking about the whole zen-buddhism thing where everything needs to be in balance and every right has its wrong and light has shadow and so forth and so forth... then the good times, the highs, the times when everything is going blissfully fine and nothing should ever change, has to be followed by absolute shit.
right?
i mean if the entire equality thing is going to work, then good times need to be balanced out by bad ones. this is something that makes me very paranoid about the good times. its as if as soon as i realize that im having good times i start getting really worried about the bad ones that should follow. so im constantly seeing little things that shouldnt matter as the first of a chain of things. and oddly enough, im usually right...
its a repetition. things come full circle.
29.11.04
17.11.04
im naming my first ulcer after you.
sometimes i think it would be nice to already know how a relationship with someone will end up. that way you can tailor the first impression to match. so that if you meet someone who will end up being an asshole, you can greet him as one to begin with. or if a girl is to just mess up one of your friends, then you can treat her then as you would after the fact. it would make us all a little more honest. instead of pretending to be all nice and prim and proper (usually anyway) on first meeting people and then letting people onto the fact that you can be a right mean bastard.
just a thought... this is why i shouldnt study, never can focus.
just a thought... this is why i shouldnt study, never can focus.
8.11.04
bound.
so many pleasant things are eternally bound by unpleasantness.
beginnings have ends. which could be argued to merely be the beginnings of something else and not a true end.
night gives way to daylight. despite my best efforts and countless pleading otherwise.
there are several examples one can give, but the only one that keeps repeating itself in my head is this one...
that a greeting is always to be followed by a farewell.
i think as it is, that ive said enough of them. i dont want to say anymore goodbyes.
and sooner than i would like ill have to say plenty.
beginnings have ends. which could be argued to merely be the beginnings of something else and not a true end.
night gives way to daylight. despite my best efforts and countless pleading otherwise.
there are several examples one can give, but the only one that keeps repeating itself in my head is this one...
that a greeting is always to be followed by a farewell.
i think as it is, that ive said enough of them. i dont want to say anymore goodbyes.
and sooner than i would like ill have to say plenty.
