18.11.05

blue and yellow give you green.

this is easily the most inane little thing to bring me joy. makes me smile every time. its a stupid little daily task made all the more fun by the addition of blue.
blue made bathroom breaks fun. thanks blue.

its just such a thrill i get whenever i step into the bathroom and notice that the porcelain fixture is not full of its normal, blah, everyday transparency, but instead of that most divine of colors that wonderful treat for my visual senses that i have to control myself to not emit a squeel. its full of blue water!
nothing so great in that, but when blue meets yellow it makes green!
its like being in kindergarden all over again, when you just realize that colors put together make other colors. and then fingerpainting! but this... this is just a little piece of heaven in porcelain wrapping.
starts off a deep majestic blue, like the ocean in the middle of the pacific where the bottom is unfathomably far away under the calm surface... its that blue. then it starts to mix and swirl with the new color as they play a joyous game that resembles a dance of a most lustful specimen, like an aquatic tango to be played by colors only... a feast for the senses... as they dance and circle and combine in glorious rapture until only the sea green remains...
and then flush and away it goes and its replaced anew with a fresh blue hue.

its such a simple thing that amuses me... one of the things that i can enjoy cause i stand when i pee.

ah the joys of being a man.
green.

17.11.05

better to have loved and lost....

well sure. assuming that you werent in love at the time of losing. thenits not so better. then its better to just not have had than to have endured lost while in love. really should just change this, better to have loved and moved on.
besides the people that say this are usually bastards currently in love. not ones also having lost. those people usually are at the bar trying to cope with an alcohol dependence. but rarely does this ever ever cheer someone up. its a crap phrase.
but if you lost by choice. then its ok. a gradual weening off of a person, doesnt seem so bad then. better to have initially loved and then gradually less and less so until you moved on.
now thats a honest uplifting phrase. not very hallmark quality though.
better to have loved and lusted than __________.
thats hallmark... or spencers gifts at least. spencer is a dick. he needs to grow the hell up, and air out the store cause they all smell funny... kind of like cats.